Moments when you seem real are not that often anymore. Like you are some fairytale we have told Ava over and over about her brothers Mason and Carter. You have four kids Maija-Liisa, you really do. Your mom really looked down at her beautiful grandsons and fell in love. You really went to visit your living son Mason for a few days after his older brother died. I wish it wasn't all such a blur. But maybe the blurriness is how we survive.
I agree. It's a bittersweet thing, this blur. Doesn't make it any less real. It would be nice to be able to hold them every once in a while to remember touching them and being close :). That's where I have to lean on pictures... which I feel like we didn't get enough of!
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