Where I am at

Pregnancy Update.

I am 21 weeks along. Our little guy moves around a LOT. I love it!

Last Saturday though, I was feeling Irritation in my uterus and I felt very tired and just kinda crummy, plus I had a TERRIBLE feeling all that day that something was wrong. So when Jared finished working I made us go into L&D to just have them check and make sure everything was ok. So we get there and the nurse checks and can see some irritation on the monitor and a couple contractions. They decide to check my cervix and the nurse tells us it is 1cm dilated. It felt like we were living a bad dream all over again. So my wonderful doctor comes in, even though she is not on call that weekend and checks. My cervix was over 3cm long still, but I WAS dilated, which is scary. So they decided to keep my overnight a couple nights to watch for contractions and any changes. So I had a boring weekend in the hospital being on bedrest and by Monday my Irritation was feeling a lot better and I wasn't really having any contractions. So they checked my cervix and it was the same as the last Wednesday when I had my last ultrasound to check on cervical length. Good news!! :) So they sent me home.

I am now on Progesterone and Modified bed rest. We have wonderful neighbors and friends and family who are helping out so much. I can do some things, like get myself simple microwaved food, and shower, but I am realizing I can't take care of Ava all day. She is very high maintenance. I am at about a stress level of 9.5 out of 10 and when I can't get Ava to do exactly what I say when I say it, or when she is demanding things from me that I can't do it takes me over the top. I feel so bad that I can't even take care of my daughter like I need to. So anyway, people have been watching her for either the morning before her nap or the afternoon until about her bedtime and it is making a huge difference! She needs to run around and play and be a two year old. Not just sit around and read books and watch tv, which is all I can really do with her right now. I do feel sad/guilty that I am missing out of huge chunks of her day though because usually it is just Ava and me hanging out 24/7 (minus sleep). It will definitely be worth it though to have a healthy baby boy in the end.

So it is a weird situation right now and I definitely want to err on the side of over-caution than pushing myself just a little too hard and having things end terrible wrong. Hopefully everything will just continue to stay the same. I think after I pass these next few weeks and get past 23 weeks I will not be so worried... (maybe). Right now I feel like an insane person. I have either seen or talked to my doctor over the phone 5 out of the last 6 days. Quite ridiculous I know. Losing babies makes a person just a little bit paranoid.

So anyway, please pray for us and our baby that he will be able to stay inside for a few more months! And thanks to everyone who has already helped out- I have such amazing people in my life.